Navigating Dreams and Uncertainty

Do you ever lay in bed pondering about choices you've made? Your dreams? Your goals? Or what do you want to do in the next chapter of your life? As I am wrapping up my junior year these have been the questions that I have been pondering. This time next year I will done with my high school experience, and be moving away from home and everything I have ever known.

That is both exciting and terrifying I have known what I have wanted to do after high school for quite some time, it has been my dream since I was little. I know the work it's going to take to get there because nothing in this life has been easy for me. I have had to work hard for everything every day to do the things non-disabled people don't ever think twice about. Hard work is something I have learned to and at times it feels overwhelming and impossible. As I have started touring colleges it's hard to realize that it's closer than even though it still feels so far away.

In my time of worry and anxiety, I know that it won't last forever and I only worry about it because I care about it. Jeremiah 29:11 says that God has a plan for everyone on this Earth. Plans for us to flourish and prosper. This verse and many others bring me so much comfort knowing that the creator of this beautiful place already has a plan worked out for what my future holds.

So people stress that by your junior year of high school, you have to know what you want to do with the rest of your life. I have learned that I don't even know what I am going to do tomorrow the thought of the future is terrifying but I do know that I can do the task right in front of me. As the phrase goes, how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time?

Also at the end of the day, very few things are forever. There is nothing wrong with trying something and it not working out. it says more about you as a person to give something new a try than to stay in your comfort zone.

As I made the transition from elementary to middle school from middle school to high school and high school to senior high the thought of a new chapter has always been overwhelming. Every time it has always worked out in the end.

This school year has brought a lot of changes new school, a new group of friends, SAT, touring colleges, starting this blog was a big one, and naturally, change brings stress. I have wanted to start this blog for a long time but as someone who likes to keep their heart protected, I found it hard to open up. Out of fear of judgment, not to mention the time it takes to write thoughtfully planned out and written posts.

As this year has been very stressful it has also brought some of the best friendships and memories. I have learned that some of the stress has been good because I have learned to step out of my comfort zone to become the best version of myself.

If you feel overwhelmed by this stage of life you are in right now, remember that you don't have to have it all figured out.